By Priyadarshani Shrestha
Photos by Satyan Shrestha
- Not communicating with my father as much as I should have
My father was against my decision to pursue acting as a profession because, at that time, it was not considered as a good career option. He suggested me to choose any other professions and even warned me that he would get disconnected with me if I disobey his suggestion. Despite that, I, being an adamant and arrogant young adult who was much passionate about acting, just went along with it. I had thought that my success will compel my father to forgive me, and we will be able to rekindle our ties. However, I was wrong because I never got a chance to do that.
As a 2-years-old in film industry, I was working for my fourth movie when my father left for Pakistan to shoulder his responsibilities as ‘Ambassador of Nepal to Pakistan’. My father, who hadn’t watched any of my films, had only been in Pakistan for a month when he died of a cardiac arrest at the age of 56. I had never expected that he would leave this world so early in life.
On every day of my life, I regret not bidding him with a proper goodbye. Additionally, I should have made an effort to properly communicate with my father, and talk about my aspirations and passion in a better way.
- Not pursuing my academics in film studies
At that time, I remember what my train of thought was. As my parents were much concerned about my higher studies, I was planning to complete my Bachelor’s degree first, and then, talk with them about my real passion.
I was very adamant on pursuing acting as a career but now, I think I should have been adamant to pursue my education as well. I should have pursued film studies instead of English Literature. The circumstances would have been pretty perfect for me to study films in India as my father was stationed in the country at that time as ‘Ambassador of Nepal to India’.
- Not planning my personal life consciously
I am a very happy-go-lucky kind of a person, in my youth as well. But in the past, I did not really plan my personal life consciously. I had just lived for the present and never thought of my future. Now that I think about it, I feel I should have been a better planner because farsightedness always pays off.